A reason not to give up

Like a few in this missional movement,  I'm part of The Order of Mission.  TOM is a covenant community  of people committed to living as missionaries and disciples for Jesus.  We are a global family with members all over the world.  Helen and I are permanent members,  which means we've made some scary life-long promises.  If you want to find out more about The Order then leave a comment here or check out the website.

Anyway, this Advent TOM members are reading a chapter of Luke a day,  it conveniently has 24 chapters so fits well.  This has been really good as a way of contextualising the usual Advent/Christmas story within the wider life of Jesus and his disciples.   Each day a member posts a reflection on the chapter for that day.  I got day 13 and was asked to reproduce my post here. Before you read any further you might want to stop and look Luke 13.

My original TOM post follows.

I'll be honest. If I were one of the disciples, following round after Jesus, then Luke 13 may well have been the place I gave up and headed back to the fishing nets or tax desk.

The doom and gloom just seem relentless. First he's asked to comment on recent local disasters. His response? Something worse could happen to you.

Then there's the matter of the authorities. Why won't he just lay off them for a bit? They've obviously got it in for him, and he's really not helping. First the Pharisees, then Herod, who else is he going to take a pop at?

And to make it all worse, even those who do follow him in the street and listen to his teaching may not make it through the narrow door. The first will be last, and those who thought they'd made it may be in for a nasty surprise.

Come on Jesus, enough gnashing of teeth, can't you tell us something nice? Something encouraging? Yes, if I were one of the disciples, I may well be packing my bags right now. Except for two little things he says.

The Kingdom of Heaven is like a mustard seed. It's small, looks pretty insignificant, but when it's planted it grows. The Kingdom of Heaven is like yeast. It's tiny, but only a very little works through the whole dough. It reproduces.

I think (I hope) that would have kept me. I hope I would have wanted to be part of this thing: The Kingdom. The place where the tiny and the insignificant grow. The place where the last are first. I hope that would have encouraged me to stay, to go with him even through the hardness.

When life is hard for you, when the One you are following just doesn't seem to give up or he becomes almost too challenging, may you know that you are part of a Kingdom where the small things grow and the hard things become beautiful. May you remember that the last people you'd expect, the weak and the struggling, get to go first.

(The photo is by cardoso on flickr.  It is a reference to the very funny film Dogma which I'd recommend only if you don't mind being offended.)

Laugh-out-loud perspective

I had a moment on my own the other day and found myself laughing out loud. I was reflecting on a situation I was finding difficult which basically centred around 2 things: i) how important or not I might be perceived by others ii) how difficult it can be to let others reap some of the seeds I have planted in people's lives.

And then I had a little glimpse of meeting Jesus face-to-face in heaven. And all of a sudden I realised how wrong my perspective was. It caused me to laugh-out-loud at how ridiculous and self-centred my thoughts had become!

How important (or not) I am, how much I appear to be advancing God's kingdom, whether I'm the one who reaps or sows... it's not what Jesus is looking at. There are two things that Jesus tells us to be concerned about. In Mark's gospel when one of the religious teachers asks Jesus which is the most important commandment Jesus replies "The most important commandment is this: 'Listen, O Israel!" The Lord our God is the one and only Lord. And you must love the Lord your God with all your heart, all your soul, all your mind and all your strength' The second is equally important: 'Love your neighbour as yourself.' No other commandment is greater than these." (Mark 12: 29-31)

Paul says in 1 Corinthians "We are only God's servants through whom you believed the Good News. Each of us did the work the Lord gave us. I planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow. It's not important who does the planting or who does the watering. What's important is that God makes the seed grow. The one who plants and the one who waters work together for the same purpose." (1 Corinthians 3:5-8)

I wonder how much time, effort and emotions we waste by having the wrong perspective? How much of our time is spent worrying, striving, engineering, self-promoting...? We are simply God's servants. He's the one who makes the seed grow. We just need to focus on doing the work the Lord gives us (v5), and doing it with a heart of love for Him and for our neighbour.

We need to keep an eternal perspective and remember who Jesus calls us to be and how he calls us to live. I wonder how different our lives and our communities would look if we really lived this out.

Written by Anna R

Give me strength!

As a church we’ve recently been looking at the issue of identity. Our identity in our relationship with Jesus, in the way we relate to each other as the church and in the way we live life with the people we meet in everyday contexts.

Two themes that I’ve been considering in relation to identity have been the characteristics of strength and weakness. As Christians the attributes of strength and weakness play a big part in our thinking, language and culture. We talk about being ‘spiritual warriors’, with the ‘armour of God’, being ‘over-comers’ and persevering as we ‘run’ towards the prize before us. In contrast, weakness is a hugely negative attribute. It evokes notions of insecurity, failure and sin. Our response to weakness, in both ourselves and others, is often disdain, pity and judgement. We don’t like it, we don’t want it and we particularly don’t want any one else to notice it!

These opposing concepts of strength and weakness are similarly obvious in Western culture. You only have to look at product marketing to see the overt message that ‘strength is good’ and ‘weakness is bad’. For instance, take a look at male toiletry adverts. According to them, using products like face cream after you shave makes you athletic, muscular and means sharing your over-sized bathroom with an attractive woman. Men’s advertising often tells us that success in life is predominantly about being physically strong whilst successful women should be able to handle a career, run the perfect family and ultimately manage life without their male counter-parts.

It’s easy for us to perceive some of these world views as extreme and ineffective. However, as Christians a lot of the subliminal messages about strength and weakness impact us in the way we view our own identity. We also have a church culture that at times has a topsy-turvy view on the two issues…

We desire to grow in our relationship with God, yet this easily slips into judging our worth by it. We seek to develop our gifts, serve the church and follow our calling, but when what we ‘do’ is stripped away, we feel lost, despondent and insignificant. When our inability is exposed, we would prefer to cover it up, blame someone else or over-sell our strengths to those around us. When we really get down to it, we’d love nothing more than to be the pin-up of Christian strength, with our weaknesses only giving us a ‘humble’ edge.

As I’ve read 2 Corinthians 12 I’ve felt really challenged about my desire to be strong and my disdain for weakness. In The Message version, Eugene Peterson has used words like ‘humiliations’, ‘looking ridiculous’ and ‘fool’. These aren’t things I’d be excited about seeing in my life! Paul goes on in the passage to talk about the ‘thorn in his flesh’ which eventually brings him to his knees in weakness. Despite inconclusive theological debate on what Paul’s ‘thorn’ might be, it’s interesting that, whatever it was, Paul is brought to a place of utter humility. He finally begs God to remove the thorn he is suffering with. How many times do we respond to our failures, inability, utter brokenness with a prayer for God to take it away? It seems, in its simplest form, we are asking God to return us to a position of strength. Yet, if weakness was good enough for Paul, then surely we’re missing something?

God’s response is not always to fix things in the way we might want Him to. He doesn’t show Paul how to get better and, with a lot of hard work, get himself out of his pain. Instead, He simply reminds Paul of His grace:
“My grace is enough; it’s all you need. My strength comes into its own in your weakness.”

There is this amazing transaction as we are made weak before God. We come to Him with all of our wanting and a realisation that we are incapable of doing anything about it. In return, God’s grace is the gift that’s on offer. If I’m honest, it is the times when I have felt at my weakest that I have understood God’s grace the most. In times of failure, loneliness, vulnerability, it’s hit home again just how much Jesus loves me, even when I am so unlovely. When captivated again by God’s grace, I’m surprised that we don’t all get a bit more excited at the prospect of laying our weaknesses bare before God!

The reality is weakness doesn’t somehow feel nicer just because it’s an opportunity to grow closer to God. It’s still painful, exposing and frustrating. But if His strength comes into its own through us, then it seems like something worth going through. We only have to look at Jesus’ physical weakness, as he submitted to the cross, to see how God’s amazing power can work through weaknesses.

So during this Advent time, as we contemplate Jesus coming in the world as a weak and vulnerable child, perhaps have a think about your own response to the weakness in your life. How can we allow God’s grace to impact us in the face of our failings? When do we need to submit to Him in our weakness, rather than trying to fix it ourselves? Where can we encounter Him and be empowered by Him knowing that, despite our unloveliness, we are truly loved by The King?